no one cares about me. i really don’t mean to sound like the biggest pick me girl in the world but it’s just a fact. idk what to do. ive tried to fix things: i’ve upped my meds, stopped interacting with people who don’t treat me well (except for the main one cuz i can’t), tried to focus on school, stopped drinking, gotten involved with stuff outside of school. but im still just so alone and sad and miserable and no one’s there. im so fucking hurt. i literally can’t keep living like this. nothing has gotten better. i’m gonna be alone on my birthday on tuesday bc i don’t have anyone to celebrate with. and really there is nothing to celebrate, im a year older in a life i resent being born into. a voice told me as a child that no one will ever love me and no one will ever know why. turns out it’s true. sorry i probably sound like fucking crazy person. this is the only space where i’m acknowledged