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so i have pretty much no longterm interests. zero. nada. i would start learning a skill. working on a creative project. reading a book. watching a tv series. and get really really invested in it. for a few days. then a switch would flip and just like that it would go away. i would sigh and close all of the tabs i had open. then i'd move on. no progress made. no talent developed. nothing to show for it. the only way i could finish something is if i forced myself to. but then i wouldn't enjoy what i was doing.  if that sounds to you like adhd then good job! i just got a dx and it explains sooooo much about me. honest to god life changing. i started taking pills too and my concentration is so so so much better. i can focus on work or cleaning or writing emails for a longer time than i could before.  but there’s one thing that hasn’t changed. the enjoyment ceiling. nothing stays fun for more than a few days at most. after that it becomes a chore. some neurotypicals i’ve spoke to dismissed it. they said what does it matter if i never finish anything? as long as i’m having fun with something. but i don’t think they could ever get it. my world feels so empty. i’m reaching out to other folks with adhd and asking what do i do? do i need to accept and internalize that i’ll never be able to enjoy things after the initial phase? do i force myself to finish what i started even when it feels like hard work? is there any way i can continue to enjoy something long enough to make progress? thanks so so much! i have autism dx from when i was a kiddo if that helps. 

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