I have been struggling with my personality in regards to workplace. I work at a gelato shop and when on shift with someone it’s often one other person, I like to talk to pass the time as I’m quite chatty and enjoy peoples company. I however have this strong fear of saying the wrong thing and creating a difficult work environment because I am quite Awkward yet outspoken at the same time, I’m not good at watering down my personality even when I’d like. I’m not sure if it’s my anxiety or not but I have been getting the feeling my coworkers don’t like me much, making efforts not to talk to me or not engaging much in conversation. Which is fine, I don’t ask for these people to be my best friends I just don’t know how to get rid of this uncomfortable feeling when working that I’m disliked no matter how confident I try being. This could be all in my head as I got socially outcast a lot during school, leaving school has helped me find people like me, neurodivergent strange artistic people and my confidence and happiness has gotten so big learning that there is nothing wrong with me. But when put in a place like work where I have to interact with just anyone I get that feeling like they can all tell I’m “not normal” and instead of matching my freak they act condescending and distant. The condescending thing is something I have also struggled with a lot in my life, people often mistake my awkward nature for stupid or childlike so I’m often getting things over explained, treated like I’m a child and being told off for very normal mistakes. like I have been here for 4 months and certain coworkers still explain everything to me over and over again or come to conclusions I’m doing something wrong just because it’s a different process. Anyway it’s been really bringing me down despite having very amazing friendships outside of work. How do I get better at socialising with out masking to a damaging point and not being my authentic self? Also last thing, one coworker keeps changing the music I put on aux😔