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“Our aim is wakefulness, our enemy is dreamless sleep.” I encountered that slogan on Tumblr for the first time when I was 14 and was like ‘Wait, that is also my aim and enemy.’ I love the idea of music and performance leading to organization and directed literature. Not in a scary way but in a spiritual way. Read the Grey Book.
Jul 17, 2023
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Everything above 100% is true btw^
All things considered I think I have a pretty normal interior landscape. Songs get stuck in my head. I daydream & I fantasize & I ruminate & I contemplate. Sometimes my mind is busy, sometimes it is totally quiet. Memory is something that constantly fails me-- it's closer to propaganda than documentary to me. And the projectionist who plays the propaganda to me is this blind, deaf, volatile schizophrenic intent on making me, the rememberer, as deluded & ill informed as possible. Sometimes I'll have this strange feeling that I've received a memory from the future in a dream, even more rarely I'll get this sort of memory in the waking world. To understand what I'm talking about, click the link I've supplied.
But really, honestly, outside of that I like to daydream a lot. Today I was thinking about visiting Georgia & daydreaming about being a young Russian nobleman in the 19th century, the son of some diplomat or something, laid out in some Tblisi opium den. I'm faded as fuck & I'm staring at the rug and the ceiling & then rolling over facedown in the naked breasts of some Georgian woman. She is perfumed & her arms are fat & she pets my hair and coos-- this is incredibly disgusting to me of course.
Sometimes I think that Consciousness is a curse. Free will was given to us by God, but Knowledge of Good & Evil was something that we were tricked into taking up by the serpent (ouroboros). Not a coincidence that all great sages exhort those who seek wisdom to cease with their perception & their perception of perception & their perception of perception of perception. Meta-cognition is the flattened out ourobouros (serpent) that traps the thinker in Hell.
Feb 14, 2025
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accidentally joined a group for people interested in gnosticism but i said heck let's see what this is about so i joined their first group seminar...
and uhhh sounds like a cult
i appreciate spirituality and have beliefs based on psychedelics, crystals and planetary shit that others may find bonkers.
i also appreciate using religion and any sort of spirituality as guidance for you to feel better and become a better version of yourself.
however the communities like the ones in the seminar are alarming. you should definitely not listen to somebody that claims to know the mysteries of the universe or have some incredible knowledge that they acquired through mysticism. you can learn, meditate and make your own meaning but claiming you're a new prophet of the one true religion, a divine messenger of god, or have any relation to a higher power that is directly communicating + giving directions to the masses through you is wild.
this is a pretty basic level ramble, but i see why the in-group quality of a "healing" community is so attractive here. everyone wants to be a part of something especially in this loneliness epidemic, and even more so if it sounds like it's going to improve you mentally or physically.
all that is to say just be careful y'all.
imma read some climate crisis, psilocybin and sociological substacks now
Oct 17, 2024
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I used to think TWXTTXR was a literal embodiment of the collective unconscious. But no, it’s just the collective ego. Let’s dip down and get into the good stuff.
Feb 2, 2024
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One of my all-time favorite musicians. Pre-revolution Iranian psychedelic rock but also singer-songwriter vibes. Cinematic, confessional, transformative. Some of the most tragic, lush and poetic lyricism I’ve ever encountered. It’s crying music but the kind that you can also play in a car full of people. I recommend “Saraabe Toe,” “Entezar” and “Gole Yakh” to start.
Jul 17, 2023
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We all have deep inner wisdom and knowledge that ego can at times obstruct. I’ve found that talking to myself really helps circumvent any blockages and allows me to access my intuition more directly. All you have to do is ask yourself out loud what’s on your mind and answer honestly like you’re talking to a trusted friend. I talk to myself frequently and it’s one of the most healing and forward-propelling actions I partake in.
Jul 17, 2023
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The only game on my phone. It’s very therapeutic and engaging. God speaks to me through Woodoku as I often get angle numbers in my scores when I play.
Jul 17, 2023