and i love a personit is this personbecause i have literally done this like 4 times this yearout of all of the permutations of this personyou are the brightestand also the first person that i have truly been honest with in a very long time or perhaps ever if iām gonna go that far
even platonically, falling in love is one of the most beautiful things about life. more specifically, loving people- the way your friends do something thatās so characteristically themselves, and you canāt help but get up and throw your arms around them and think, maybe youāre the best thing thatās ever happened to me. the way your mother smiles and the weird little color offset in her eyes catch the light so right, and then she tells a funny joke and it catches you so off guard that you spit your water out. the way that boy in the hallway smiled at you when you started geeking about the band on your shirt.
i love to love people. i love to love all of the little things that make people unique. i love to imagine that our paths cross in every universe.
āi am a mosaic of everyone i have ever met in this lifetime.ā
so simple but it has stuck with me since. it's probably been a year since i received this message and the sender is now a hinge match turned close dear friend. i go back to look at and think about this whenever i'm down on myself close second is one of my new school friends telling me, after only knowing me a few months, that she can see how strongly i love people and that she loves me for it. i've always seen it as a fault but i deserve to be loved for those too
We are perfectly similar yet different enough that we never get sick of each other. Heās my proof of love at first sight even if I was too skeptical at the exact moment we met. Looking back that is what it was. We understand each other in ways beyond words and itās been perfect since day one! We are definitely made for each other. This photo is one of my favorites that I took of him recently. Idk why just something about it is lovely to me like itās nostalgic for a time that I havenāt lived through
This city has the best climate in America. I love it so much. I wish I lived here. The AI researchers, the big tech yuppies, the fact thereās an ethnic neighborhood for cishet frat brosāI love it more than anywhere else in America. The group houses, the cults, the rationalists, the technoptimists, the pure and untapped creative alpha. I have literally not spent more than two weeks in San Francisco. Itās a social scene the size of Dimes with 100x higher impact. āOh letās go to clandestinoā No letās go to The Interval at the Long Now.
I was walking around the Upper West Side this morning. It was 50 degrees. It was 6 am. I learned of this band a few days ago. I was sad. I was in a vaguely mystical state. I ran into someone from downtown. His girlfriend had broken her hip at Bella Ciao a few nights ago. They capture such a particular emotionāthis song is my favorite.
I was quite bored in 2019. I got really into cars. I learned everything about them. Why did I do this? I didnāt know how to drive and this was the only way to motivate myself. They film all of the car youtube videos on Angeles Crest. Itās beautiful and you can drive very fast. I now live 10 minutes away from this place at a house nestled deep in a river valley. My roommates went to Deep Springs and the house is 98 years old.