If you only know Doja Cat from her hit singles, viral TikTok sounds, and trollish online antics, you might be surprised to learn that she had a deep career on Soundcloud long before she would first boldly declare "bitch, I'm a cow". As a teenager, Doja would scour YouTube for songs to turn into beats and vocalize over. One such song was Com Truise's Brokendate, which forms the foundation of 4 morant (better luck next time), uploaded to Soundcloud in 2012 when Doja was only 16 or 17 years old. She eventually took down the song, and generally refuses to acknowledge it (likely due to the very personal lyrics), but it recently had an official release under Com Truise (to whom she did not give credit in her initial upload). As for why I recommend it: this song is just perfect for those late nights when you're in that dissonant state of hurting deeply while being too apathetic to acknowledge or do anything about it. You feel stuck and a bit impulsive and very alone. Damn, no one gets it. Then in a sudden moment of clarity, emotion comes spilling over you. I cry from my eyes to my feet, stairs to the street to the gutters to the seas. You sit in that feeling for a while, but then it washes away, and you're left in your habitual resignation. Sigh... better luck next time. Better luck next time.
That remix question reminded me of this one. Taylor Swift is a complicated woman. Whether due to bravery, curiosity, or some sort of witchâs curse, she seems dogged in her attempts to replicate music with which she has no experience or familiarity, the results of which are sometimesâlike in this caseâfrustratingly better than expected. Kendrick Lamarâs entire production team is behind this single for 2022âs Midnights, and itâs got the same direct-injection powertrain of earlier bulldozers like Mine and Cornelia Street, with a great little melody skipping over the top and none of the lyrical mishaps that tend to go bump under the wheels of some of her other songs. And yet: it spends its entire 3 and a half minute runtime blindfolded and tied to a folding chair. We donât get to see anything it can do. Eventually it sort of tips itself over and waves its legs in the air like a bug and dies. Thatâs it. I donât understand what happened in the studio but there are at least several dozen people, mostly on SoundCloud rather than the remix album she seems to have helmed, that have taken this thing outside and brought it up to cruising speed. Once it gets going you can really feel it all lit up in neon, 14-inch talons, sparks skittering off where it touches the concrete. Itâs a fantastic song I think. Probably one of her best. I wish I knew why it got the CIA treatment.
I absolutely rinsed this album when it came out and again when brat dropped but wow - it was really such a moment in time - side note : you must never let your favorite songs get ruined for you after they become a tiktok sound.
I donât think pop music has historically ever had a moment like her âGirl, So Confusingâ remix verse. Itâs not a joke. Itâs a triumph for literature. Everyone remembers where they were the first time they heard it. This was a serious revolution and took us out of her usual fever dreaminess of controlled poetic syntax (which I love) , to just unmasked, raw, chaotic feminine brutality and I donât think we appreciate the prose switch-up enough. I also have said âletâs work it out on the remix?â to many people Iâve fought with since the song dropped. Sometimes I even write a verse mimicking the song taking accountability of what Iâve done and I send it to who Iâm in a conflict with, it actually helps! Iâm obsessed with the new singles off her upcoming album Virgin and Iâm already studying the cadence of epigrams like âMDMA in the back gardenâ,. Iâm someone who struggles with severe summer depression, which is taboo in the world of seasonal sadists but taking my discman for a walk by the ocean as âThe Pathâ starts up on my (files purchased on ITunes!) burnt CD-R copy of âSolar Powerâ is natureâs SSRI. Suck on that, Saint Johnâs Wort.
when i was severely depressed my roommate (who didnât know i was depressed) surprised me with a bowl of instant noodles while i was studying and i burst into tears. she was very confused but kind about the whole thing. comfy memory.