one of the reasons I went back to school was to recapture the high of deciding to skip your last class on a sunny barely-spring-like-but-almost day and being out and about when no one else is and you aren’t supposed to be either
just stared college classes again after a years long hiatus and I love homework????? it my go to excuse to not go out but also it is making my attention span go back to normal
I hated college when I was there but I miss it so much everyday. I miss smiling at people in the hallway and doing homework. I think it’s good to reflect and appreciate things, even if you didn’t appreciate it in the moment. Having something to yearn about will push you to greater places.
i was far too busy getting completely obliterated to do so in my early 20s. (do not recommend.) but the experience of doing schoolwork now feels like it did as a little kid. you know.. before puberty knocked me awake to the reality of my shitty home life, which caused a haze of depression to fall over me. in my single digit years i remember being so excited to do school work, and feeling so proud of myself when i did well. im getting a taste of that again.
i never lost the exhilarating feeling i got from gaining knowledge that truly excites me. but it’s a beautiful new kinda thing with the added clarity gained from not being ripped on weed 24/7 and the added confidence gained from surviving the shit hand that was given to me as a kid.
hang in there 🕊️