The mix of fear and adventure
Driving through the night blasting your music with the windows cracked open just enough for the cold breeze to swipe against your face while having the car heater set on your hands and feet, smoking j after j to keep you up while you let the random thoughts come and go from your stupid little head. Practicing pushing the unproductive thoughts away. Very hard for me, they get stuck all the time, but I WILL keep practicing
