18 - fell in love, made new great friends, got my license, experienced a new environment where no one thought I was dumb for what felt like the first time ever, found independence from my shitty home life and replaced it with silly car dinners and kisses with the person I loved. I think 18 was when I started healing but didn’t know yet that I needed to.
22 - so many new things that were scary but so fun and so special. Travelled to Japan with the same love from 18 and had so much fun exploring somewhere new with them, quit a shitty fucking job and became a florist which I had wanted for so long and loved all of it, got a new job and found what I’m passionate about. Felt supported.
27 - right now and it’s pretty good so far. healed from the love thats not for me anymore and now we’re friends (sometimes we make out by mistake but it’s fine it’s just an accident every time). going on dates that show no potential but collecting stories and experiences. . feeling really good about who I am. only 3 months in honestly so this might be premature coz the next 9 could suck.
Mar 31, 2024
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9 - started playing trombone, was the first yr i wasn‘t moving around between schools (district lines and stuff are stupid and classist), the jack johnson/curious george song was popping off (other good songs too obv), and spent my days playing on the lawn with my friends and talking to my crush until i got my seat moved. True bliss!
21 - Got to live in seattle for an internship, came back to LA and had my own room and only one roommate(!), was slutting myself out (i wanted to seriously date but the girls i was with didnt want anything serious, so i had to just go with it), going out with friends most of the week, and i had my whole career set up post graduation from undergrad! then covid hit so it went downhill but it allowed me to be more thoughtful about myself and my future
25 - that cortex development went crazy and I finally feel the most together I’ve ever felt. Really leaned into trying out all the hobbies I can to figure out what I like. Have a newfound appreciation for existing and knowing more of what i want from me and my relationships.
Truly can’t wait to keep growing up!
Apr 1, 2024
In the course of 365, I . . .
- Started dating my current girlfriend
- Became a manager in training at a fast food restaurant
- Lost my great grandfather
- Started smoking cigarettes again
- Became 18
- Left previously mentioned fast food restaurant
- Moved out from home to live with my girlfriend
- Tried to stop smoking, emphasis on tried
- Realized I was going to become a dropout
- Worked at a family owned barbecue place
- Had multiple breakdowns over how I felt stuck, believing my life is over
- Started working at a food truck as a line cook, rekindling my love for cooking
- Left that food truck to work for a new restaurant
- Helped BUILD AND MOVE IN FURNITURE FOR MONTHS
- Waited, and waited, and waited for work
- Started cooking again
- Restaurant FINALLY(!) opened, so started work
- Panic over my age and lack of experience
- Realize everyone has to start somewhere, they weren't just born at 30 and were immediately a great cook
- Got something on the menu and people like it
- Got my first GOOD GOOD check, making me realize it's my last year being broke
Of course this isn't everything, but to me it's everything worthwhile/worth mentioning.
This was a picture from a couple days ago, my love goes to school for psychology and I walk around the campus playing Pokemon Go/reading/listening to music.
A tree. A billion little things, doing one gigantic thing. Living.
Mar 13, 2025
I turned 21 in february 2020, so, ya know. My world changed quick.
But truly I just remember trying various things, trying to define and undefine myself. Feeling what it felt like to stick to my guns, then readjust them. I was in the middle of what would be a 2.5 year relationship. I didn't kid myself with picturing a big future anymore than what was sweet, which was wonderful. I was living with a partner for the first time and felt like I knew what to do, like I was experienced enough for all the problems which faced me. but really I was just experienced enough to start so many things.
I was constantly bouncing between total pride and complete faliure. Playing house in a house I was actually renting with friends. Experimenting with what grocery shopping for myself meant to my life, redifining how I was going to live my days in the future.
The best thing I did in my 21st year of life was not be too mean to myself for not committing, and just committing to new things. I would go dance in the park, go on walks, edit music. All things I wish I did on the regular but regardless, by trying new things, it made it so much easier to pick them up, because I had a frame of reference for the world.
I loved being 20, as depressed as I was. That specific creativity is gone. But now I am 25 and know how to weild my own magic. The depth I have always felt within my soul has farther definition. Its like I put on glasses in a 7th dimention. Don't underestimate the beautiful growth ahead. Yes you are an adult, equipped hopefully to start so many new things. But keep up that internal work, and the years will be bountiful towards true inner peace.
And soo many more new tools to better learn how to tackle issues while still feeling like yourself.
u got this. stay true to urself but be flexibl with redifining who that is.
x
Jun 12, 2024
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make big scary decisions, take spontaneous trips, kiss random people, go on silly dates, get drunk in the city, do new things, close a chapter of ur life to start a new one some place new, do the things you never thought u would, shock the rhythm of ur brain and embrace the new version of yourself you become along the way.
maybe it’ll all go wrong but maybe it’ll all go so so right n you won‘t know until you try so u might as well do it.
perspective gained from a recently shaken life.
Nov 9, 2024
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it’s hard to give context to this one bc it will look so different for every person but just please have patience with urself
Dec 1, 2024
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I went on a date this morning and it was sweet and fun and now I feel like I can do it again and it was so nice to meet a new person I’ve never known before. Incredible to know other people do exist.
(watch me unrec this when I go on a bad date)
Mar 29, 2024