- mirrored mind (2005) dir gakyuru ishii
- crash (1996) dir cronenburg
- sueno en otra idioma (2017) dir ernesto contreras
- problemista (2023) dir Julio torres
- amanda (2022) dir Carolina cavalli
- sugar cage (2019) dir ziena alqahwagji
- love & pop (1998) dir hideaki anno
- the last days of disco (1998) dir whit stillman
- watermelon man (1970) dir Melvin van peebles
- the last year of darkness (2023) dir ben mullinkosson
Climax (2018) by Gaspar Noé Trouble Every Day (2002) by Claire Denis The Doom Generation (1995) by Gregg Araki Bodies Bodies Bodies (2022) by Halina Reijn Suspiria (2018) by Luca Guadagnino
i have been summoned, here are some of my faves: crash (1996) dir. david cronenberg
videodrome (1983) dir. david cronenberg
possession (1981) dir. andrzej żuławski
antichrist (2009) dir. lars von trier
climax (2018) dir. gaspar noé
eyes wide shut (1999) dir. stanley kubrick
mullholland drive (2001) dir. david lynch
Juliet of The Spirits (1965), Federico Fellini House (1977), Nobuhiko Obayashi Possession (1981), Andrzej Żuławski The Night of The Hunter (1955), Charles Laughton 3 Women (1977), Robert Altman Meshes of The Afternoon (1943), Maya Deren. The Inauguration of the Pleasure Dome (1954) and Lucifer Rising (1972), Kenneth Anger. Also- his complete Magick Lantern Cycle. Dreams (1990), Akira Kurosawa Mirror (1975) and Stalker (1979), Andrei Tarkovsky Bell, Book, and Candle (1958), Richard Quine Chess of The Wind (1976), Mohammad Reza Aslani Body Double (1984), Brian De Palma Klute (1971) and The Parallax View (1974), Alan J. Pakula Nine to Five (1980), Colin Higgins
read from 2021 abt modern counterculture, rejecting tech overlords, and the dark forests of the internet "To be truly countercultural today, in a time of tech hegemony, one has to, above all, betray the platform, which may come in the form of betraying or divesting from your public online self.”
well-written article analyzing cronenburg's films and contrasting them with today's sexual politics and lack of eroticism. passage i enjoyed: In fact, we are not impermeable packages of preformed desires, importing our likes and dislikes around with us from one encounter to the next like papers in a briefcase. An erotic craving is inextricable from the ferment that foams up when oneself is sluiced into another. Not only is it impossible for us to know whether an encounter will be deflating or transformative but we cannot know what sort of metamorphosis will ensue if the sex is as jarring as we can only hope it will be.
and marvel at the progress you've made. im reading my old journal entries and i was actually a mess, but i've grown so much in a year :) always love and appreciate your old self because she's still within you