hello newcomer of PI! Dw about the heavy posting, we are real people with real problems for real.
I personally stopped taking bc after being on it mostly of my early twenties. it became weak against my growing body, and it effected me in ways I didn’t process at the time. Extremely low mood, breaking out, spotting early and backaches.
Instead of thinking of bc as the problem that you need to solve, what if you thought of other alternatives? looking into IUDs for example? Or finding a physician specific for your needs, perhaps someone who identifies as a woman? honestly, TikTok is a crazy good resource for this kind of stuff too. Given that sex is in line with being a source of income, your fears around removing birth control are completely valid. If you are in a position to, perhaps take a week off from working and birth control at the same time, to let yourself make a decision. Obvs, birth control effects (even the removal of it) takes around a month to feel, but hey, it could work in deciding what works for you!!
I wish you the best, and hope that this transition is easy for your mind, body & soul!