and if i donāt sleep in my own bed i will wake up with a headache! :)
i have a double bed (which is definitely a bit too big for the size of my room but its worth it), and i use 2 duvets. i have a fan next to my bed aimed directly at my face. i sleep on my side with my duvets wrapped around me like a cocoon. i usually have to listen to something to fall asleep (unless iām really exhausted) so iāll either listen to asmr or a podcast.
after what iāve done? not well. on a bed, but not centred - away from the roomās door. i have to sleep with 3 (or at least 2) pillows. one i actually sleep on, and two laid beside me in a vertical row. and i have to cover my entire body and face with the duvet, even if itās at the height of summer. canāt use a sheet as a cover bc itās just notā¦.substantial (i think i need a weighted blanket fr). for bedtime rituals, the only thing i do before going to sleep is piss, and put my hair up. my sleep itself is very broken up bc of needing to get up and piss more lol, after which i canāt sleep again for a few hours, but then there are other times where i just sleep for 9 hours straight. though problematic and potentially rlly unhealthy, i also canāt sleep without earphones on, listening to music or asmr.
personally i get so uncomfortable and anxious away from my bed and my roomā¦ itās simply a no when it comes to foreign sleeping places! my brain cannot compute or settleā¦
worst sleep of my life is anywhere not on my white ikea twin bed with my two separate blankets that allow me to regulate my heat and the tv going on in the background so itās not completely silent and the random shit strewn about on my bed that i keep there for convenienceās sake at arms reach, even if i am on top of them sometimes (phone, glasses, airpods)
Going to sleep is a whole ritual. Have to wait for the right point in a relationship to bring up my routine because it frightens/baffles them.
Basically I have to trick myself into sleeping because my brain is really alive at all times. No "invigorating" music half an hour before bed, sunset lamp on, double cleanse, moisturiser, eye cream, lip balm, hair oil, silk scrunchie, hand cream, brush teeth, electric blanket on full for ultimate tucking in cosiness then down to 70% for the rest of the night, take inhaler, giant t shirt on, scroll, watch ASMR/listen to guided meditation, three pillow v formation and body pillow, set three alarms, phone on do not disturb, eventually pass out from exhaustion. I have never known peace a day in my life.
this may seem like it makes life very lonely and boring (it does) but i like to think it makes me come across as mysterious and fascinating (it doesn't)
