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slept in until 1pm and need to be up early tomorrow . my caffeine addiction answers to no one though., especially not the demands of a schedule. so my solution is redbull bc after that soaring high, there’s a crushing down . thatll have me out by 11 if im lucky..
I couldn’t tell you why but if I have coffee after noon I’m awake until 2 in the morning . EVEN if i break out the baby melatonin. I guess it’s made for babies but 3 full droppers of that stuff is still not enough, it’s crazy.
Apr 28, 2024
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It’s the way that the caffeine hits. I can’t get an iced latte at 2 o’clock or I’ll be up for 36 hours.
An iced matcha though? I’ll grimace shake that shit in the middle of the day and still sleep with only minor insomnia
Feb 7, 2024
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Keepin that caffeine level high to get thru this silly life
Feb 23, 2024
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IM YOUR BIGGEST FAN ILL FOLLOW YOU UNTIL YOU LOVE ME
PAPA PAPARAZIIIIIII
May 5, 2024
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Like a dear friend . I miss how when I would smoke a cigarette it would settle into my hair , blanketing a preexisting layer of perfume. I love the way smoke seeps into the fabric of my car, my clothes, even into my skin. Smells like my parents, my grandparents. Our old house. Dads gold Lincoln towncar that we got shot at in. And last time I saw one of those, I was picking dad up from jail, and its license plate read TRULOVE.
Dec 14, 2024
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Loneliness prevails! I would much rather live purely in solitude for ever and ever than waste another precious second in the presence of someone who has little skin in the game of knowing me or seeing me. Hearing me! I wonder why you keep me around if all your hearts desire is to hear the sound of your own voice.
It makes no difference if it’s me or anyone for that matter.
For all you know or even care I am merely an ottoman for you to rest your feet on, or a coffee table meant simply to pedestal your various notebook scrawlings and half-read books. I am a file cabinet. I have it here, dated, what you Thought and what you felt about work, or about your friends. ask me, I have it all.
And I loved it. I loved knowing you. I wanted to. I investigated and interrogated. I poured over it all with great curiosity, praying for all my red threads to weave a tapestry of you.
but I can’t remember the last time you asked me something about myself. When the opportunity arises, and god forbid, I Take it, you can barely hold your breath. Its like a shark sensing blood. You just can’t wait to talk talk talk talk talk.
But hey, it’s your life, and baby, I’m just living in it.
Dec 10, 2024