who knows, maybe i’ll cry in my room or perhaps in the bathroom after cutting the cake… maybe i’ll drive around my hometown and notice how different the view looks compared to when i was five, is the view at 25 more beautiful or is it dreadfully filled with a sense of nostalgia i’ll forever be chasing after?
wednesday’s child is full of woe.
I haven’t really been able to allow myself to look forward to it because last week was the busiest week of my life that id been working towards for literally years. but now it’s over I’m like OH YEAH ITS MY BIRTHDAY SOON! its full of lots of other emotions as there’s been a lot going on, exciting and sad and just a lot. so I’m looking forward to some gentle celebration.
you know what, i’m tired of crying on my birthday being a bad thing. i’m going to make it a good thing TODAY! how lucky am i to have a life worth crying over! to be alive at all! i will not have the joy of this birthday be clouded by me inevitably crying like i always do. it is barely midnight, and i already have! and it’s all going to be just fine.
I’ve been working in the service industry for like 13 years and nightlife for over 5. I decided in 2019 to go back to school and this past December I graduated. I just got a part time gig in my field but the pay is really good and I can finally see myself getting out of working 9-4am.
The last three years have been the hardest of my life and when I tell you I SOBBED after I got this fucking part time job. I’ve never had a desk job so I’m incredibly nervous but so excited. Anything is possible! I don’t believe in my career being my life but I do believe in having a job that doesn’t make you not want to be alive!