let go of the desire to be really good for a bit, because realistically that is not in sight yet. have fun being bad, play something awful. the sound is your oyster nevermind some silly pearl
i had a brief stint with teaching myself to play the saxophone when i was 11 but it didn’t last beyond middle school. secretly i unironically think i'm a musical genius with wasted potential. but it’s okay…. it wasn’t meant to be…