Is being competitive and self reliant and individualistic masculine. sorry I took that from you guys. I was described as undifferentiated and androgynous
It’s always fun to learn things about yourself later than you’d think you would. I’ve always been seen as super charismatic & outgoing & extroverted but deep down that stuff killed me, drained me. But I was good at it! And so even when I’d explain that it exhausted me I’d be met with a “There’s no way, it seems natural.” I love alone time, I love being with myself, I love introspection & self-investigations. And it turns out that there is a word for that: Introvirtuous. After spending most of my life in leadership roles, being put at the forefront of groups + dynamics, having to accept the “dad” title in the friend group it makes sense. There’s a way for me to be introverted and still accept that when it’s necessary, I will step up to be the guy at the front. And then I’ll go home and cry. But damn it, that performance while I’m at the front??? Incredible.
Being able to just change on a whim is so fun. Presenting as fem and the next day masc. Most days I’m pretty ambiguous esp now that im gaining muscle. I love seeing people trying to figure me out, just seeing them trying to fill in the gaps. :D
You will never know unless you do. even if you fail your effort will be rewarded! As wisdom to continue forward or as the knowledge and satisfaction to know you went through with the thing! Congrats❤️
