I graduated from uni and couldn't find a career job. So I moved back home to my little town and into my parents' basement, worked at a cemetery, and taught as a substitute teacher. All my good friends were gone, and I was drinking heavily on weekends with the locals. When my girlfriend realized I was on the fast-track to losership, she cheated on me (she was still at uni) and used that to end it.
I did learn how to grow most plants from seed, how to bury someone properly, and how to handle teenagers in a classroom. Then I went to grad school.
Dropped out of bachelors sem 1 because of a shitty roommate and no friends and then fucked around and failed a ton of classes in community college and finally finished up while my friends are graduating with bachelors!! Now I’m trying to go back to a school and get some college life experience before I turn into an old man ! Work in progress… on the way I found some work I actually enjoy doing and actually have a bit of a plan and a lot more of a personality than I did at 18! I regret nothing but the F’s on my transcript.. I don’t even regret the amount of time it took me. I eventually got fed up with my shit work ethic and being on academic probation.. last two semesters I had like a 3.7 gpa that I am very proud of. I stagnated really hard at the end of high school and genuinely had zero passion for anything.. finding stuff I actually like took time. I have things to do that aren’t stupid video games and YouTube videos and common ground I can use to make friends.. not content with my current life situation yet but I am more and more content with myself as a personality every day
still in college right now. i grew up with parents i felt were pretty strict so being able to move away was good and bad. with such a new sense of freedom i kind of lost it and partied more than i could handle. my grades took a tumble, but i was the happiest i had ever been. obviously, my parents were not happy with that and i really had lock in on academics. although this new party lifestyle kind of caused a unnecessary amount of stress, i wouldn't change how i handled this at all. through this whirlwind of nights out, i met my closest friends and really discovered myself. my university has a large music scene and most of the parties i went to were also house shows. while i have severely grown out of the crazy partying, i still end up at these functions as a photographer for the artists or clubs throwing the events! i wouldn't have discovered my passion for photography without exploring the music scene the way when i first got here.
High school was so awesome. I did tons of extracurriculars, I did morning announcements, I got crownes Prom King, all that good stuff. Then I graduated and now I am the most bored I have ever been in my whole life. I’m glad I have myself figured out now because I sure as hell did not four years ago, but I still kinda feel the same dread that I used to feel all the time back in the day. Maybe I just need a car and a job 🗿
When I was young, I generally avoided eye contact with people, but working in a research library broke me of this habit (you can't help people at an information desk unless you look at them for clues about their needs). I usually make eye contact now just to find that person in the people sea that is not staring at their phone. I try not to be a creeper though. Just an acknowledgement that we are both taking a break from the screenlords and their algorithms for that moment.