the trick is to create ambiguity about what u think of him, or what u want him to think of u... this ambiguity starts as affected or performed but if u do it right it might turn into legit ambiguity and thats when it gets really fun
seriously, imagine the worst quality thing you can create in your medium of choice. Lean into the shit. Make it awful. Trust and believe you will learn more about yourself and maybe even stumble upon something beautiful.
