to do something better than someone else merely because i know i could fucking demolish them... but i dont have the energy to spend on these ho's are so lucky
i think the mixture of an overactive imagination and hypersensitivity led me to being supremely terrified of the dark. i used to sleep with the lights on for years, which is probably why my circadian rhythm is fucked. i remember being so scared of looking outside my window at night. i always thought that something would appear and it would be something i wouldn’t be able to comprehend— which scared the absolute shit out of me. im still (somewhat) afraid of the dark, so going out at night can be a feat unless im inebriated
