Take it one step at a time. You're still young, you've already accomplished a lot in a short period. Take time for yourself, do something for you, achieve something for you and not someone else. You have time, take it.
The other day I watched a tiktok on how to easily de-seed a pomegranate and the person said “this should only take 3-4 minutes, there’s no need to be in a rush, why do you feel the need to do this in 45 seconds? are you that busy” and thats really stuck with me— you can just take it easy most of the time
