i've got an internship which starts in september which i'm super excited about but it's meant i've had to move back with my parents till this time next year. and while i love being back at home, it can be very suffocating cause of the severe loss of agency,
plus my core friend group at home is more or less extinct as well as the plans we made for summer. but a smaller circle has come out of it, we see each other once a week which is really lovely and we've been on the arts and crafts grind recently. on the days i don't see them or my other friends, i feel ridiculously adrift. july was like a big sleepwalking episode just a very inert atmosphere so i've decided to make august more memorable, which has been going alright so far.
i haven't got a summer job so i've just been spending and now i'm kind of worried about money but like that's a constant worry i guess and just nervous overall about the future in general cause of all the upheaval. not sure which masters to do, if i should even bother etc. some of my friends have moved and are moving abroad for uni or just live pretty far away from me. it's been an ok summer so far but yeah idk.
Aug 13, 2024
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there's really something about summer. i was back in my home city and i've been more content than i've been in ages. i've been slowly but surely becoming a more functional, productive person and i revised for an exam in the sun, got myself a really good chai latte, took myself for a long walk - slowly feeling less like a cave creature trapped in mental hibernation
May 11, 2025
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Last year in July, I left my whole life in Paris. My parents cut me off and stopped paying for my flat in the city and I was so depressed about it all. I used to go out a lot, party in the coolest places with my friends whom I adored... I had to leave all of it behind, the glitter and the joy. I moved to a place in the middle of nowhere with my boyfriend, like literally sheeps right behind my house haha. Everything was hard, I had to do physical labor that I never experienced before and I was bored out of my mind.
Connection is not the best here so I had to pick up something to do. I went swimming a lot, I started making pearl bracelets like my mom did in the 70's in the DRC when she was a kid. It felt nice :) We adopted a stray cat and named him plantain in lingala "Makemba", his owner had left him behind. My parents and I made peace, we all grew up...
I'm moving back to Paris to resume law school after years of wandering in the abyss of my future. I'll miss the sheeps, the big tree in out backyard, coloring books and sleeping with the door open. What I thought was the worst punishment of my life grew to become bittersweet memories... Even when everything is shit, something nice can come out of it... I wish I knew that when I was crying cause I didn't want to leave ๐ธ
Aug 1, 2024
yeah, so, totally forgot abt this bucket list
i did some really cool stuff throughout this summer
iโll list them hehe
- got a job for like a month, worked w kids
- girls trip to the beach (vlogged it)
- volunteered in a rugby championship
- visited many museums
- scouts summer camp
- beach rugby tournament
- day trip to bilbao w some friends
- read The Hunger Games
- watched SO many movies
- perfect pool days
- i met a guy (didn't work out tho, but still)
- grandmaโs house with my cousins
- fiesta obv
- and THE best thing: a 15-day trip to China, where i met awesome ppl, made good friends, learned a lot about the culture, i meditated, drank tea, ate and left no crumbs cuz it was all delicious, discovered chinese rural areas, witnessed the most beautiful landscapes and rode a scooter
by far, summer 2024 has been the best summer ever
this was xianggong mountain in china
Nov 5, 2024
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