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Phoebe Lucille Bridgers, Will You Marry Me?🌹

Phoebe Lucille Bridgers, will you marry me?🌹 From: Chad lan Zappia-Hesperia, CA -6’2” or 6’1” (I gotta check) I am skinny but I got some “fit” qualities going on— skinny fit I guess. I play Dark Souls sometimes. I think Portlandia is funny. One of my favorite songs is Bled White by Elliott Smith. I think Harley Davidson shirts are cool even though I don’t have a drivers license. Loud noises stress me out sometimes. I am unemployed but make money off of music royalties. I’m a romantic and kind of laid back, but I’ll still put on Fetty Wap or Avenge Sevenfold. Whatever the situation calls for. Didn’t have a lot of friends growing up. I get embarrassed when I practice singing outloud sometimes. Still living with my family. Money is whatever. I like doing activities outside of the house but I’m a homebody, it’s too cold to go on a walk in the desert right now though. My hands and feet hate it. Big fan of Boston Terriers and Dobermans. Big fan of Boston (band) specifically the song Smokin’ I can play it all the way through. Nightmare Before Christmas head. Revisited record is cool minus Marlyn Manson I just ignore they’re on there. Harmonizing to songs rocks. Changing lyrics to something cringy rules. I hope In Da Club playing on the speakers in a 99 cent store says it all. Don’t wanna give away too much though. I am 25 turning 26 on August 2nd. I don’t know if I’m agnostic or atheist, I think if someone were to ask me that question I would get sleepy and zone out. I lean left politically but that makes me sleepy as well. Peace and love. Non-vegan but wish I could, Robert De Niro $ :/. Reserved and an open book, twofer. Also I have your name tattooed on my lower back if that helps. I don’t have a lot of patience when it comes to pushy-rude. Passive-rude I could laugh about. Most things are a quick, “well whatever” or I’ll probably laugh about it. Also I’ve been in love with you since I was like 18 or 17 or 16. I am being 1000% serious. You changed my life and continue to every waking moment. I wanna be a wizard with you and grow old together and we can wear hats and cloaks, fridge with flames on it and all. Here’s my email [email protected] @phoebebridgers I wanna be your Aragorn with a Kramer. I wanna go to the doctors with you. I wanna laugh about health issues in old age and say “Well, we still have time to change it.” I wanna be the cream to your cheese. I wanna do jumping jacks in front of you forever. I wanna do push-ups if you get mad at me. I wanna teach you stuff and I want you to teach me stuff. I wanna show you how good I am at pool. I wanna be anxious in an airport with you. I wanna fist bump you. I wanna sing the “Time is a wheel in constant motion” in I Hope You Dance with you. I wanna forget what song I was trying to remember with you. I wanna I Hope You Dance with you. I wanna quote School of Rock with you. I want you, Phoebe Lucille Fucking Bridgers! P.S. I love you! 

@TheLicks

Mar 19, 2025

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Talking to strangers

sometimes they have something amazing to say. this guy is marrying a girl he met on tik tok. he lives in a camper. he has a lap dog named chloe. BEAUTIFUL!

@sillyabby

Dec 20, 2023

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meeting the man of my dreams

and then meeting his beautiful wife

@natmat

Jan 30, 2024

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reading through all your old recs

sometimes you just need to read some real shit straight from the realest person you know .

@steelyfan1998

Feb 24, 2025

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becoming a gymcel; COWARDICE

I've been Hitlering myself, Stalining myself, Musollining myself, Maoing myself for the past 7 months. I do this because I am a coward, and totalitarian regimes are conducted by and inflicted upon cowards. Something interesting about me is that I am 5'10.225" in the morning. As the day goes on, my spine compresses and I am shorter by about a quarter inch to a half inch come evening. I generally refuse to acknowledge to myself that at midnight I'm 5'9" because, as stated above, I am a coward, and a vain one. This past September I weighed in at 210 lbs, putting me undoubtedly in the "overweight" segment of the population and just on the border of mildly obese. That's funny to me, that last summer I could have been 5'9" and obese or 5'10" and just bog standard overweight-american depending on the time of day, really. But you have to understand that if I were not a coward, this would not matter. The non-cowards among us, the brave and the beautiful, they pay no mind to these things, they can drink milk without spoiling it.  I am no longer as overweight or obese as I once was. The last time I weighed myself, I was at 187.8 lbs., meaning that I've lost somewhere in the neighborhood of 25-30 lbs of fat when you factor in muscle gains. I still have a long way to go, of course. But I have been lifting weights and counting calories and yes, this has unsurprisingly made my life less unbearable. But I'm still a coward. You can't lift away cowardice, cowardice is not something to be shaved off by a caloric deficit. I operate under the delusion that if I can reach a certain set of numbers it will be mathematically impossible for me to be a coward. Lately, I’ve been coming around to the conclusion that my cowardice is parabolic— diminishing itself quietly into infinity but fundamentally unable to arrive at y=(0).  Yeah I lift brah. You must understand that I do not lift to feel strong, but to make external my constant, gnawing, smothering internal weakness. I used to hope that I could draw it out and smash it away beneath the barbell. I'm beginning to understand that my condition is chronic-- it's cellular, in my cytoplasm. When the muscle fibers tear, it is the cowardice that rips itself apart, and when the muscle fibers rebuild themselves it is the cowardice that comes back all the more potent; I foam roll at my cowardice in hopes that my lower back will be less tight, my hips more mobile, the fear made flesh less aching and sore. But really it just looks like I’m having awkward missionary sex with an imaginary partner alone in my living room. What is it that I’m so afraid of? Why am I saying all this? I don't know. There's a girl who I want to talk to and every time she texts me I feel sick. I apologize for how mundane the answer is, really I do. But every time I try to communicate with her I feel like I've said the exact wrong combination of words. She texted me happy birthday today and I somehow found a way to say the wrong thing. She thinks I’m funny, she likes to talk to me, and every time I make her laugh and I hear her laugh I'm reminded of the insect I truly am. Only a coward feels this way when he's around a beautiful woman. No other explanation. Every single woman I’ve ever loved has terrified me. 

@steelyfan1998

Apr 8, 2025

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anti-rec: smoking weed

This is a confession post, not a recommendation, not even much of an anti-recommendation. Tbh it reads like a humilation ritual. Honestly just keep scrolling; it's not worth reading. I'm just posting it because I think I had a point when I first started writing this, one which I lost pretty wuickly. But I spent a good couple of minutes typing this all out, so I'll post it anyway. Thank God I'm anon. If you do read it, please forgive me. My friend Tyler brought a joint to the super bowl party last night. He handed it to me & told me about how it had weed diamonds in it while I smoked, he told me that it was some good shit and that I wouldn't have to smoke so much of it since I've got such a low tolerance & all, but I could also smoke as much as I liked, seeing as he had a bunch more & that it was the super bowl & we had a bunch of wings on the way anyway, so might as well smoke some more weed so you know what? yeah, i smoked some more weed since what's the harm anyway it's just weed after all. I've been a mess all day. I've been slow & stupid & disgustingly horny since I woke up this morning; but really honestly since I smoked the weed. If you're one of those types that "actually becomes more functional when you're smoking weed" & that I should "just let people enjoy things" I don't know what to say to you. I'm going to be weird for 4 weeks now and it's all my fault. This happens every time. Even when it doesn't turn me into a non-verbal paranoiac nutcase, even when it's enjoyable to me in that moment-- I become something lower than a beast. I stand over the platter of chicken wings & gorge until I am sick and then I gorge even more. My stomach becomes distended & my face and fingers are covered in thai curry buffalo chicken fat goo. I waddle around & fart & I find this very funny. I confuse the sound of my own voice with that of my younger sisters & this is incredibly disqueting to me. Do I really sound like that? I become a big confused overgrown fat baby. I'm going to be be weird for four weeks now. Slow. I was supposed to meet up with my friends to watch Luka's debut for the Lakers. I'm stitting at my desk typing this up; procrastinating going to the gym (which I can NOT neglect [especially after my evening of spiritual obesity]) & the game starts in 5 minutes. Stupid. Typing out this confession right now is painfully difficult. Every word that I type has the appearance of a whitehead that can't be popped to me. This textbox full of blemishes so infuriatingly, stubbornly, immutably DISGUSTING. I feel sick just reading back what I'm writing here. Once again, if you've made it this far, forgive me. This is a confession, not a recommendation. Disgustingly horny. This one I won't elaborate on. Forgive me. It's not because I smoked weed. The smoking of the weed was just the first movement in a sequence that had already begun before I'd even accepted the joint from Tyler. My own spiritual weakness is the mantle upon which all of these failings hang. I'm not this way because I smoked weed, I'm this way because I'm the type of guy that smokes weed even though I know what it will do to me. There are 999,999,999 other weeds in my life that I am all too willing to permit myself. I haven't eaten anything but bread & butter all day. The lakers game is starting soon. Off to the gym I go.

@steelyfan1998

Feb 11, 2025