My period is four days late and I swear it better be waiting for the supermoon/bluemoon tomorrow night and nothing else. Perhaps my body is waiting until I am able to finally harness my utmost power and potential through the hormonal portal. My insides are currently teeming with rageful anticipationā¦!!! I also just spent the last four days in the ocean, floating and dunking my flesh suit, (which I feel so uncomfortable in during this stage of my cycle) some of the time getting battered by waves, and drawn in by very strong currents, remembering my smallness, the earthās vastness. And in all this waiting for my period, waiting for relief from the scattered anxieties in my head, soft but strong like cotton in the canals in my brain, and in my stomach, a dullish, empty but fibrous feeling of dread and discomfort. Please bleed!!!
I got my period at about 4am this morning, 2 days after winter solstice and the day after a full moon. the sybolism of it all, the kismet of it all. i've ended up going inwards in a way I don't often during my period. i welcomed her instead of groaning under the effort. i've decided to see it as cleansing, grounding, enveloping, slowing. i coccooned myself and treated myself right. i dragged my mattress into the garden and stared at the sky for 3 hours. i did """self care""". i feel good. i feel grateful to women who came before me and battled this with less than I have.
feeling out of sorts? day going terribly? believing you have turned into an unlovable monster? (aka did you just get your period?) blame it on the moon, babes. if she has the power to affect the freaking ocean tides, what makes you think she isnāt also affecting your moods and internal body cycles? i mean, we are made of 60% waterā¦
my periods are off and on with the pill (god please i donāt wanna be on it anymore) and iām an odd duck who loves connecting to my period but i havenāt had one in a couple months and let me tell you
diva down
i am down i have cramps and in a strange way i enjoy the forceful rest it puts me in
i feel like iāve walked miles in these hinged hips, or lifted people with this aching back
anyway shout out my womb havers who also are getting visited by their aunt flo this month
Iām on an instagram break plus I like you guys more so please enjoy this painting I am proud of. Referencing Boschās garden of earthly delights, specifically the third āHellā panel ā¤ļøāš„ acrylic and gouache on raw canvas!