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a little all over the place experience-wise because it was not even a little peck, it was straight up making out, AND i hadn’t fully realized/come to terms with being gay so afterward i couldn’t sleep due to my guilt and anxiety and literally almost threw up lol 🙈 in hindsight i was def baby gay in love with her at the time! i was messy but (until i moved mid-hs) we ended up being good friends for a time :)
Oct 16, 2024
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💋So one of my flexes is that actually I had a great first kiss experience. I was 15, it was with my girlfriend at the time. We had been dating on and off for a few months (this was both our first like serious relationship that counted so it was pretty messy in soooo many ways). We had been best friends for a long time before dating and we always had feelings for each other.
We were in my house playing Dictator on my iPad, sitting on a bean bag in my room. We were cuddling and the tension was over the roof, and after holding the most intense stare ever I ask "what?" (and I knew what was happening but I wanted to play dumb so that she would say it and then I would not have to start it because I was nervous and we had never kissed and thought she might reject me?) anyway and she went "god, I hope I don't regret this" (which like looking back no wonder I was afraid of getting rejected and like damn bitch but also we were teens and she was very nervous too). So she KISSED ME and everything inside me exploded. We proceeded to make out for like a full 40 minutes with some breaks and like got hands under shirts and also this was the first time I ever touched a boob and it was MINDBLOWING and AWESOME (i love boobs).
The breaks we took in between were also pretty sweet. Our relationship up to this point and also after was full of hiding because neither of us wanted our families to know we were together so we were always looking to get intimate in positions were breaking apart at a moment's notice would give us plausible deniability (I still was a cishet man so it wasn't a closet thing back then, but neither of us was ever very close to our families that way). We would play a couple of rounds of Dictator and then make out in the ad breaks. Also my dog was around and wanted to play and was SUCH a bother. In the end the secrecy wasn't effective because the bean bag was right in front of my door (which I was not allowed to close) and we noticed at some point my mom was passing my room on the way out of a room we never saw her walk into in the first place...? So she definitely saw us, we just don't know at what part (hopefully not when we were getting handsy LOL).
We dated for a couple of months more, broke up because I left on a semester abroad, got back together after two years and had a much better, healthier, steady relationship for that time. We don't speak anymore (but that's a story for ANOTHER day) but last we spoke about this we both remember this kiss very fondly.
We were in my house playing Dictator on my iPad, sitting on a bean bag in my room. We were cuddling and the tension was over the roof, and after holding the most intense stare ever I ask "what?" (and I knew what was happening but I wanted to play dumb so that she would say it and then I would not have to start it because I was nervous and we had never kissed and thought she might reject me?) anyway and she went "god, I hope I don't regret this" (which like looking back no wonder I was afraid of getting rejected and like damn bitch but also we were teens and she was very nervous too). So she KISSED ME and everything inside me exploded. We proceeded to make out for like a full 40 minutes with some breaks and like got hands under shirts and also this was the first time I ever touched a boob and it was MINDBLOWING and AWESOME (i love boobs).
The breaks we took in between were also pretty sweet. Our relationship up to this point and also after was full of hiding because neither of us wanted our families to know we were together so we were always looking to get intimate in positions were breaking apart at a moment's notice would give us plausible deniability (I still was a cishet man so it wasn't a closet thing back then, but neither of us was ever very close to our families that way). We would play a couple of rounds of Dictator and then make out in the ad breaks. Also my dog was around and wanted to play and was SUCH a bother. In the end the secrecy wasn't effective because the bean bag was right in front of my door (which I was not allowed to close) and we noticed at some point my mom was passing my room on the way out of a room we never saw her walk into in the first place...? So she definitely saw us, we just don't know at what part (hopefully not when we were getting handsy LOL).
We dated for a couple of months more, broke up because I left on a semester abroad, got back together after two years and had a much better, healthier, steady relationship for that time. We don't speak anymore (but that's a story for ANOTHER day) but last we spoke about this we both remember this kiss very fondly.
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💋i was 16, & i’d gotten my lip pierced literally the day before. the piercer really emphasised how important it was to not drink and to not kiss anyone for at least a few days, and i reassured her that i was definitely not cool enough to be doing either of those things.
but then i got a last minute invite to my first house party the next day (lip piercing added some cool points i guess) so of course i had to go.
my friend started plying me with drinks and i am nothing if not pliable. eventually we ended up sitting on a bench together in the darkest corner of the garden, both pretty tipsy, and she said “we could totally kiss right now” and i was like “we shouldn’t….. because of my piercing..” but then i thought about it for a second, realised how Lame that was, reassessed my priorities, and kissed her. i think as far as first kisses go, technique wise, it was actually pretty good!!! but some boy from our school who we didn’t know also started filming us halfway through, so less good in other ways. i think he literally gasped and said “lesbians!!!” so silly.
nothing else ever happened between me and my friend. i was a little bummed about it at the time but i’m pretty glad in retrospect. we were very different people. also, my lip piercing was totally fine, thank goodness
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💋We were 14. It was a costume party. I wasn't dressed up, not quite sure why; I could've easily been Wanda. We were hiding together. I was in love with him at the time. We're both mostly gay now. I look back on it fondly. 😇
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