i feel a sense of freedom that is unparalleled. i can finally sleep in, wake up without immediately studying, read my seven books i have on the go, spend time with my friend and partner who have all assumed that i was dead, embroider my jeans, draw, watch movies…. finally, the angels (creativity & relaxation) have come for me.
Every time there is a long holiday break from work or even a night where I don't have much going on, I find myself super anxious, desperately looking for a way to do something productive (write, clean, bake then clean more, workout, do a task I've been putting off). My boyfriend, on the other hand, is realllllly good at RELAXING. Yesterday he spent the whole day in bed watching Tiny Desk on the T.V., drinking tea, reflecting and relaxing. At the end of the day he said it was much needed and then went to bed early. In 2024 I want to be able to do NOTHING and feel good. Like really good, not fake good. Haven't done it yet but I think I would highly recommend it.
recently, my girlfriend left for a study abroad and most of my ffriends are on holiday break away from NY. therefore, i have just been in this cycle of working and eating and sleeping. these past few days, i've made it my mission to get something done before i leave for work. whether that is taking out the trash or getting a croissant, i just have to have done an activity that requires me to leave my bed before my next shift. who'd-a-thunkit, i actually feel a little bit better every time i do this! i feel like i am making sense of the time that i have and i find great pride in being intentional about my joy. to more days like these, my lovelies
just finished college and my calendar is clear for the rest of forever. what a rush so many possibilities! terrifying but in the meantime i get to sit on the couch with my cat and go to the park in the middle of the day☀️
