you really couldn't pay me to relive this year. but the lessons im taking away from it were more than necessary, even if they had to be forcefully taught to me over and over. first lesson: the simplest things are hardest to understand.
like being your own best friend. or to not give others too much of your time. to look after and love yourself before even thinking of doing the same for others. to walk away from friendships you've lost with a renewed desire to use all that new time being with yourself instead. not just on your phone but really getting to know yourself. that people come and go in life and you are the only one you have forever so have love and kindness and patience for yourself the way you do for others. things that sound simple right?! that keeping yourself busy and putting off your emotions will only make them bigger. that you can only love someone and know someone as much as you love and know yourself. to make moves in silence so they're actually accomplished. not to wish ill on others even jokingly. not every problem needs to be confronted immediately, decisions can be dwelled on. it's good to sit and think. even when it hurts not to, don't argue with others. again, its okay to sit and think those thoughts instead. reflection hurts and sometimes hurt is needed. go on more walks. face more of your fears. don't forget to freaking write in your journal everyday so that when you DO write it's not about how "damn".. you haven't written in so long. throw stuff out. eat more fruit. Post less, worry less about time. stop regretting everything. actually read the books you borrow. everything in moderation. don't skip a meal and work before play (im a grown adult saying this) take a deep breath once in awhile. a clean house is a clean mind. making your bed feels real good. the simplest things are the hardest to get. i hope to go through more painfully difficult things in 2025 that i think i won't possibly get over until i do.. happy new years ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡