i just read ānormal rules donāt applyā by kate atkinson and i looooved it! so fantastical and chaotic and funny and a good reminder that sometimes things just donāt make sense and thatās okay!
in honor of St. Patrickās day, i just finished this book about unrequited love, love at the wrong time, love again at the right time, requited friendship that ebbs and flows, etc., set in Ireland in the early aughts. and i am weeping! itās very funny and heartwarming and precise, definitely one of the better contemporary lit books iāve read in the past year of course, read if u like Sally Rooneyā¦
A very popular book, but if you havent read it yet... I recommend it. Devoured it in a few hours first time I read it. The way the characters view relationships is very in line with my own. To the point where since reading it I have a relationship with a similar dynamic since (don't know if I recommend that). The point of the book, to me, has always been to showcase the difference forms love can take on, even when the feelings are unchanging. Other than that Sally Rooney is just a really good writer, is tapped into interesting discourses which she weaves into her stories, and she knows how to make a character problematic in ways that feel relatable and honest instead of foreign or scary. + i just really like stories about 20-something-year-olds being themselves, figuring shit out without much plot holding it together. My best friend gave it a 1/5 stars on Goodreads bc she thought everyone was boring and whiny sooo like.. it's not for everyone maybe.
i think my heart will do anything to just keep on loving and keep on forgiving and itās really time for my head to teach my heart thats itās okay to lose.
people stay together because of one reason or the next, but how stupid could you be to then not be in love? but then again, thereās some sort of weird, twisted, sick romance in staying with someone even through the thin. even through the sickness, and the bad and the ugly. maybe they are waiting to get their spark back, maybe the world is against them, or maybe, just maybe, they stick together because they found their personātheyāve built a life together, and neither one knows how to let go.
there are things i think are weirdĀ
but itās not that they are actuallyĀ
weirdĀ
itās that they are unusualĀ
or they bring me a new perspective ā
one that iām not so used to
ā like seeing an orange tractor on the side of the roadĀ
surrounded by three men in orangeĀ
construction suitsĀ
in the middle of the french countrysideĀ
or the fact thatĀ
at the beach yesterday, the foggy glimpse of
land,
the island we could see in the distance
was the british island of jersey. it made me think about how the world
is really so smallĀ
and that we, humans, are the onesĀ
that make it seem so big andĀ
vast.Ā
we are the ones that over complicate
over think
over populateĀ
over build
over useĀ
over dignify ourselvesĀ
when we are just merely
visitors in this never ending universe. and somehow, in someĀ
situations that idea isĀ
safety andĀ
comfort. itās refreshingĀ
to know that as messy and as complicatedĀ
our lives are, none of itĀ
actually matters. because if nothing matters, we can get away with a lot.
we can be mean andĀ
crazy and stupidĀ
and in loveĀ
and happy and hungry for more
and sadĀ
and lively and alone.Ā but then i remember that āwe are not a drop in the ocean we are the ocean in a dropā
and we donāt have to pretend that ourĀ
emotions are meaninglessĀ
and that our lives arenāt meant to be livedĀ
and we arenāt meant to be thought about andĀ
cared for and loved.Ā the things we feel are real and they hurt.
they are painful.Ā
they are beautiful.Ā
they stay and they pass.Ā
just like the fog that covers up jersey ā
just like the tractor on the side of the road ā
just like us.