Realizing I have been afraid of excitement because it teeters on anxiety but that has mostly been out of a lack of confidence on my part And finally realizing nerves are good And make you feel a little sexy. anyway, anticipation and what-ifs are some of the most fun ways to use your imagination and energy in life and wow I haven’t felt how good possibility or opportunity could be for a while. Almost let the dream and romance die in me for a second. Yikes!