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me, exactly a year ago today….
sending that cutie a hug and a kiss
what a crazy year it was from then to now, and although i certainly don’t ever want to repeat it, i am grateful for the person it helped me become and am continually becoming
no pain, no gain ((unfortunately true))
Jan 9, 2025
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painful, directionless, largely unemployed, sexy, grimy, changed my hair color about five times, got blackout drunk too many times, leaned into what it means to be loved and supported unconditionally for the first time... and to be vulnerable in sharing the ugly truth I had been hiding for so many years.
it was just the beginning and lay the foundation for the tremendous positive changes I would go on to make the following year like beginning EMDR therapy and starting down the path of my career (and quitting smoking…)! enjoy you don’t have to be even close to figuring everything out this is the time to have a little fun and explore before things get too serious and don’t think too too much about what it all means… but do take care of yourself. everything will come together in the end 🫶
Jun 11, 2024
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and this has been the most difficult year of my life 2 date. but hey. i am stronger for it. i'm lucky to have found who i can count on and i'm learning to do what makes my soul happy. after school in may 2023 i moved back home to NYC and while parts of that felt like a homecoming i also felt spit out into the World directionless and freaked. but i've been finding my sea legs and keep reminding myself this is the widest breadth of life i've ever lived. young adulthood is wack which simply builds character.
21 taught me that EVERY PAINFUL EXPERIENCE IS AN OPPORTUNITY TO DIG INWARD. as i approach the end of this year, i can say i truly know myself.
happy almost (?) birthday <3
Jun 11, 2024
I turned 21 in february 2020, so, ya know. My world changed quick.
But truly I just remember trying various things, trying to define and undefine myself. Feeling what it felt like to stick to my guns, then readjust them. I was in the middle of what would be a 2.5 year relationship. I didn't kid myself with picturing a big future anymore than what was sweet, which was wonderful. I was living with a partner for the first time and felt like I knew what to do, like I was experienced enough for all the problems which faced me. but really I was just experienced enough to start so many things.
I was constantly bouncing between total pride and complete faliure. Playing house in a house I was actually renting with friends. Experimenting with what grocery shopping for myself meant to my life, redifining how I was going to live my days in the future.
The best thing I did in my 21st year of life was not be too mean to myself for not committing, and just committing to new things. I would go dance in the park, go on walks, edit music. All things I wish I did on the regular but regardless, by trying new things, it made it so much easier to pick them up, because I had a frame of reference for the world.
I loved being 20, as depressed as I was. That specific creativity is gone. But now I am 25 and know how to weild my own magic. The depth I have always felt within my soul has farther definition. Its like I put on glasses in a 7th dimention. Don't underestimate the beautiful growth ahead. Yes you are an adult, equipped hopefully to start so many new things. But keep up that internal work, and the years will be bountiful towards true inner peace.
And soo many more new tools to better learn how to tackle issues while still feeling like yourself.
u got this. stay true to urself but be flexibl with redifining who that is.
x
Jun 12, 2024
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https://1001albumsgenerator.com/
this website gives you a random album each day to listen to, from the book 1001 albums to hear before you die. it skews heavily to western/american music, but there are definitely some gems in there. plus it has made me more open to listening to new albums recently released
Jan 6, 2025
