This one recently started to click, it was always a good song but I never found it worthy of notice. It’s like I finally peeled the plastic wrap of the new cd and now I can‘t stop chasing the hopeful melancholy that the song brings me.
Jan 16, 2025
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Every few months I find a Mark Kozelek song that becomes the only song I want to listen to for weeks. First it was Micheline, then Carry Me Ohio, then Ben’s My Friend, and now this. Idk what he puts in these song man
Feb 28, 2024
craaaaaazy question to ask me specifically because now I will never shut the fuck up
I first came into contact with this album in 2022 or 2023 because its final and titular track was featured in the end credits of an episode of Girls. It immediately became one of my all-time favorites. Both gut-wrenching and hopeful, the song's narrator reminisces on a previous emotionally dark time for them, a time when they were grieving and trying to hold onto things they couldn't keep (underweight, in the street, hot with grief). The hope in this song, which takes the breath out of my lungs, lies in both the crucial past tense of these feelings and in the final lines, 'get well soon, get well soon / I was once just like you.' This has become a sort of mantra for me. Tucek takes something you would see on a kitschy greeting card and turns it into a plea for recovery.
Unfortunately, it took me months to sit down and actually listen to the full album in late winter 2024. It happened very much by accident. I was itching to hear something new and thought, well, at some point I should check out the rest of this artist's work, considering this is one of my top 5 favorite songs of all time. I never expected it to be such a work. I figured someone else would've sang its praises by now if it was going to change my life (which is why I adore this ask, because I think we all have an album like this, or at least we all should). The albums contains stories of grief, regret, dissatisfaction, bad fathers, and ultimately Moving On with a capital M. The track order is perfection. My other favorite song from this album is The Fireman. Somehow it is able to invoke in me feelings I've never experienced as someone whose father was not an absent asshole. The Doctor is a beautiful song about wanting to surgically excise the negative aspects of us that we get from our parents. Things Left Behind is great for thinking about death. Wooden has a perfect guitar solo.
This album is unique, fleshed-out metaphors with mostly a handful of acoustic instruments and an excellent voice. I would change nothing about it. I plan on tattooing the cover on my body because I want it to be a permanent part of my skin.
I might have to write more on this. Transcendent album. if you like Weyes Blood, Angel Olson, Aimee Mann, you will enjoy this. If grief is as constant to you as breathing you will enjoy this. If you're mad at your dad you will enjoy this.
Get well soon (and I mean it)! xoxo
Oct 22, 2024
Bonnie Dobson’s Good Morning Rain has been hitting so uniquely right lately… her beautiful lyrics and voice blend for a special melancholic sound.
Feb 26, 2025
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It pains me to be here. It pains me to have become this person. It pains me to know I’ve spent all of my life chasing something that was never meant for me, knowing I’ve wasted twenty two years of my life for this. Oh honey you deserve it. That’s all I hear because so many people warned me, so many didn’t believe I was good enough and I made it my life mission to prove them wrong. My high school friends never thought I would enter medical school, my science teacher in high school told me the first day to quit. And I proved them wrong I guess but what is left of me. All my life I needed to be good enough to justify all that my parents gave up for me, to justify all that I sacrificed. All my life I needed to be good enough to deserve love. I constructed all my life around the idea of being perfect for others to regret their words or for others to think I was worth loving, existing. So i’m here now with nothing that is mine, without goals that weren’t first my parents’, without love for myself that wasn’t first validation from strangers.Â
Now I see people making a life for themselves. People who seemed so far behind me once upon a time, built a life for themselves without misery. They grew up while I was stuck here, miserable just like when I was a sixteen. What happened?Â
What do I do now? I feel so fragile, so aimless, so spoiled, so ruined. All I ever did was being a good student. I am an adult now and it’s not enough anymore, I cannot hide behind books anymore. And when I took a breath I was left behind, cannot start again because if I don’t have the admiration of other people what do I have? Once I might have loved medicine.
But I don’t have it in me, the vocation to be a doctor and, after realising it, I stayed anyways. How I can come back from that? I don’t know how to begin again from nothing. All I know is I’m unhappy here, I’m unhappy with the person I’ve become. All I know is that I’m searching for the courage to disappoint myself.
I hope my mother can forgive me, didn’t make her proud
Mar 29, 2025
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one of my old faves, back in high school I was really angry and this song channeled all that frustration
Jan 14, 2025
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Finally booked that doctor appointment I've been avoiding for a while, now I just have to go…
Being an adult it's made sometimes of just these routinely obligations that you could come to see as boring but this one is straight-up anxiety inducing for me. But as Kierkegaard said (probably not in this exact words) it's better to know that not to know. I'm so chill about this. :)))))
Jan 17, 2025