All I can say is that I know how it feels when you most definitely have not found it: hollow and always wanting for more, looking down the barrel of the rest of your life and wondering if this is what it's always going to be like. I’ve only begun recently within the past year or so to examine all of the ways in which I’ve betrayed my authentic self and the ways I’ve sought dull flat dutiful comfort out of fear of uncertainty and what I’ve lost from that. So I’ll let you know when I get there ;) 💋
Sorry but this is genuinely inspirational I feel like my whole life I’ve been looking down that barrel and havent listened to people when they told me to ”follow my passions” - your note on seeking comfort out of uncertainty but still always wanting more is extremely relatable. Hmm much to think about
eatgraeps I am SO glad to hear that it resonates with and inspires you!!! It’s been a process within about the last year of just making more and more little choices that feel like they align with my authentic self and coming into my power, my confidence, and my voice. I would have never expected all of the changes that have happened so far and the things I see coming on the horizon! You can always change your life ❤️
oh YEAH i feel this entirely. i might not know what it feels like but i def know what it feels like to try to make myself do something or be somewhere that does not make me feel like myself. sending you good vibes while you’re making it happen <3
spent the last five or so years in a maze of ennui and self-pity, but i have in the last 18 months slowly been clawing my way towards something resembling the life i want to be living. i can see the end of the tunnel now, but strangely that amplifies my impatience. when things seemed more hopeless it was perversely sort of freeing - i didn’t know where i should be going, so i wasn’t in a rush. now that i have the full map in my hands i have nothing left to do but drive towards the end. that’s exactly what i wanted, in a sense, but now i have the burden of actually executing on the promises i made to myself - turns out that’s harder than making the promises in the first place! who knew