Rec | ITS 6:30 AND I AM COOKING DINNER

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i am in love with my daughter who has not been born. i am obsessed with her despite the fact that she still lives inside my body and likely will for the next 10 years. i am eating an orange peel. i am consuming the bitterness i have born to prepare for sweetness where is all the sweetness at? does anybody want to share?

@starbelly

Feb 19, 2025

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@Greenelysium

I had to re-read this cause I was like “aw thats sweet, the kid’s not born yet” and then I was like wait, “how the fuck she gonna be pregnant for 10 years.” Reading comprehension skills 10/10.

Feb 19, 2025

@babita

i’ve come to find sweetness in will. love in the unfound, the unborn. i once had spent all day without being able to move because i pinched and intercostal nerve. i was in so much pain, i don’t think i ever experienced something so painful. i knew i had to go to the hospital (it’s 3 blocks away) and that walking would hurt like a bitch. the only motivation i could find was thinking that if i ever had children, they’d need a strong mother.

Feb 19, 2025

@starbelly

babita this. this is beautiful. i think people don’t expect me to be a mom because im young and ambitious and radical and in love with a woman but a good 40% of my actions are the effect of me trying to care for my babies that don’t exist. i take pictures of myself because i remember how magical it was to see my mother at my age, no matter what age it was. i want her to grow with me.

Feb 19, 2025

@babita

starbelly yes! and if for whatever reason you end up not having kids and her< ends up being >you, another version of you (or every version there is)… it’s still as beautiful and important. all we love lives within us already

Feb 19, 2025

@wakeuplmd

Sometimes I lose the sweetness in my life, it usually happens if I stop creating/photographing/designing. The minute I start to feel that way, I fix it by reconnecting with friends and starting a new project. My batteries then charge to full; once both are done I know that the sweetness of life will return

Feb 19, 2025

@starbelly

wakeuplmd i like this. i think i feel the same way. its hard to tell myself to get up and make, awaken and become something, when i just want to lie down. my good friend told me i just need inertia, that “an object in motion will stay in motion,” and that a still object will never move.

Feb 19, 2025

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