im not quite sure who exactly i am and i think its an impossible question for any individual to truly answer but ill do my best. i’m not gonna give my name bc choc_orange does the job but i’m 20 years old and 5ā€8/9. i have long brown hair and dark eyes, im a pisces and the youngest of 5. I was raised on a small holding with lots of animals; donkeys, sheep, ducks, chickens, a horse, dogs and a cat. i went to an all girls school in a city and didn’t do well socially but always had a few friends. i love to sew and have done casually since i was about 4 years old. i struggle with feeling cripplingly lonely pretty much all the time. i love national trust homes and gardens and am contemplating a membership. i’ve never had a boyfriend or girlfriend and im pretty insecure about it, people usually assume there’s something wrong with you when you tell them (which maybe there is!??) i’m a bartender and don’t yet know what my career plan is which scares me. i have chronic fatigue/ ME i love Love LOVE walking i have an extremely terrible fear i’m romantically unloveable. also my sister is my best friend and im pretty sure we were a delayed split egg or something (dont tell me this is biologically impossible)
Mar 1, 2025

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