i am always commended for my resilience and the strength/persistence of my love even after i experience awful things. i am always told the way i love unconditionally is unbelievable and beautiful and that the amount i sacrifice for the people i love is almost to a fault. i have heard "you are so loving and sweet... it makes me feel terrible" so many times in the last few weeks i can feel it burning into my skin.
it is finally time to start showing that love to myself and to the women/friends in my life. it is time to start offering to grab myself water or dinner when i feel i need it. it is time to start moving my schedule around to find time for myself and the humans in my life who respect my time. it is time to do myself tiny and huge favors alike in an attempt to show a fraction of how much i care. it is time to do my favorite things with myself and the people who have shown me respect. it is time for me