not cursed but you have saturn in the 4H square your ascendant (rising), which is hard :( i have that aspect too. it basically feels like your home/upbringing/parent relationships felt/feel too serious and it affects how you express yourself. you probably have a lot of self control! but maybe too much. oh you also have pluto on top of your moon so you process your emotions quickly. you're also probably artsy or musical :) your chart is super interesting!