I use notebooks and sketchbooks a lot and something I’ve started doing recently is covering errors with sticky notes. Need to re-write your second verse? Throw a sticky note over the old version and rewrite it. (then I glue it down with a glue stick) Same with the sketchbook - totally ashamed of that embarrassing thing you just drew? Cover it with a sticky note and try again!
even if shit continues to hit the fan, pretty much everyone ends up exactly where they’re supposed to be. you will find a place to live, a job, a lover, friends, etc. just keep going and it will be ok.