a director, an author, a model, a designer, and at some point - a bartender
well. not much can be said on whether or not i achieved any of this, but that part in me who wants to be and experience everything at once is still there. also who knows, tiktok virality is never out of the question if you crashout bad enough on the internet.
Mar 19, 2025
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But I am kind of a goober with the most boring job on the planet just objectively speaking (luckily it gives me freedom to do other fun things in my spare time like writing and making stuff like a podcast and now YouTube gameplay videos).
You can see a recommended post below this one entitled Well to read about my prior career aspirations. Teen me would probably be disappointed but it’s okay.
I finally own a dog like I wanted. I have clear skin, boobs, and the ability to talk to people now which I never thought would happen. i live somewhere green and rainy instead of the sunny desert!
I did also get to fulfill my attention-seeking childhood dream of being on TV because I’m a hair model for a local salon owner and we did a spot on the morning news (lol). I have very nice hair in general all the time for this same reason which was something I always dreamed of as a reckless serial DIY hair cutter/colorer.
Editing to add that I also wanted to die tragically young of tuberculosis and fall in love in the sanatorium. or to be like Emily Dickinson and live by myself next to a cemetery writing to myself but feared having my imaginary future writing shared posthumously without my consent like Kafka. But look at me now I can’t stop posting so I think I failed at the whole mysterious hermit thing (though I am relatively solitary)
Oct 18, 2024
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- a writer
- an actress
- a photographer
- a director
- a fashion designer
I wanted desperately to move out and had a weird dream of working in a record store
I'm a puppeteer now, which I feel encompasses a lot of what I wanted to be, working my way up to a lead position right now.
I did move out, but couldn't handle it and moved back with my dad, and I feel like I've failed to live up to my childhood dreams in a sense.
Might move out again soon if I get this lead position (pleasepleaseplease)
Mar 18, 2025
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First when I was about four I wanted to be a standup comedian, then I wanted to work with Greenpeace, then I wanted to be a novelist, then I wanted to be a Broadway star but I have literally no ability to dance, then I wanted to be a clinical psychologist.
by high school my grades were tanking because I was skipping school a lot and not turning in any work and I saw Cirque du Soleil Quidam and wanted to move to Montreal and be a circus clown despite having no athletic skill.
Then I wanted to be a hand model which is what I would tell my school guidance counselors when they would angrily ask what I was going to do with my life. Would have said a regular model but I’m short so I wanted to be realistic but now I am a hair model (not as a career) so that’s fun. I think I’ve made out pretty well for myself for a girl with no direction…
Apr 24, 2024
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this would have been a rec 7 hours ago before the delusions subsided. to all the victims of anxious attachment, i see you and hear you and im going crazy and my tummy hurts real bad.
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