me🧍 for real though, I've had several names and my deadname and legal name (both different) are not interesting to me or profound in origin. I was gonna be named Avery, which is honestly really cool with me, but another parent they knew who gave birth the same day named their kid Avery first. so they decided to name me something else to be original on the spot. 🍅🍅🍅 so flowers, my current and most recent name... came from a halo machinima series 💀 he was my favorite character and everyone just started calling me that and it really resonates with me as a name of who I am in vibe. it reminds me of some really great times and people I love. when I use it I feel more connected to who I was then and bridging it with now
I've had issues with my name, I never really liked or identified with it until recently. I think it's really pretty but idk it just never felt connected to me. Thankfully, it isn't my full first name, Amaya-mei, so online and for a chunk of my life I went by "Mei" and most people who've met me online still call me that.
Now, I've come to really like my own name, whether it's Amaya, Amaya-mei, or Mei. But I've also really enjoyed being called by the usernames that I choose. So Juniper, Cosmo, Meiji, etc. In the end go with what feels right for you! I've had sooo many names across the interwebs and they all feel like me. So I'd say go with what feels like you.
I've gone by so many nicknames that everybody thinks it odd to call me by my real name at all (some people even get it wrong), so I've accepted having different names from different people. I've always liked my name, especially since my mom put so much thought into it (even the fact it would make a good nick name), but unfortunately I feel like it no longer represents me. I've sorta outgrown it, so Im sorta looking for a new name. Either way the name that matters is the one you feel most aligned with.