i hate knowing that even though i got a promotion a few weeks ago, i still may lose my job in the span of a month. i hate how it feels like i need to learn new programming languages every week in order to stand out. even though i am adaptable, i still donāt know ruby on rails. i hate how certifications that they donāt tell you about in school open doors for so many more opportunities, yet these certs take a lot of time and hundreds of dollars out your bank account. then half the time you donāt even pass the test and have to take it over again. i hate how AI pretty much screwed up all of our careers because companies want AI solutions for everything under the sun to stay relevant. i hate how itās told to me that clients want low-code and no code solutions, when that just means you want all your apps to look the same and have a single point of failure when the company who makes the low code product screws up. overall, i hate how it feels like things keep crashing down on me one by one in the last few weeks. and it feels like im just catching air when itās possible. i feel like i should pray right now, but being agnostic and doing that sounds weird.
Is there anything more fucking soul crushing than job hunting? Endlessly putting yourself out there, weighing up whether you are good enough for a role or not, waiting for a reply that never comesā¦
Iām at the point where I hope for rejections, they are better than no reply and usually you get some kind or reason. Iāve never been a career person so when I finished uni I was at a complete loss. Finally found a job I love and want to make my career but it pays so poorly I canāt stay afloat and Iāll probably have to give it up.
whatās that like? iāve never experienced it. iāve been searching for a job nonstop for the past five months and fucking no one has gotten back to me. i havenāt even been called back to say i didnāt get the job. iām sick of it. iām not in desperate need of a job but iād rather have one before i am. i was expecting a call back all day. i waited by the fucking phone. i called because i was expecting a call this week, and the guy who interviewed me said āiāll call you tomorrow.ā fuck you. i hope you canāt sleep at night because you keep having dreams about your ex. i hope she calls you the next day and says she wants to get back together with you and sheāll meet you at your favorite date spot. i hope she stands you up, dan. i hope everything bad that could happen to you, happens. i wish murphyās law upon you. edit: itās so funny because this is my first semi-serious post thatās doing NUMBERS. thought iād point that out and brag a little. maybe i donāt need a job after all. can i monetize this post?
idk how i came across this in my daily wikipedia surfs, but something about this painting just amuses me so much. my first impression was this looks fairly modern in a way, possibly because of the composition and how she made her features so light and bouncy. it oddly made me think of disney when i looked for longer. then i see it was made in 1909 š this painting can transcend times and i wouldnāt truly know when it was made unless i looked more closely at the objects around the subject. but even that can be a stretch as vintage items can be popular amongst anyone and they can just have their vanity setup look like this. i tried looking for photographs of her online but alas nothing came up with certainty.
i saw something on here a day ago about how fireflies are disappearing and lightly catastrophized the scenario. but then as i regulated myself i looked up an article lightly extinguishing my concerns. so as i look at the copious little flickers out my window, ill be glad to tell you that while firefly populations are decreasing, some firefly species are adapting to new environments trying to prosper and evolve. big causes for their decline are obvi climate change, urbanization, and light pollution. a simple way for you to not make things bad for the fireflies in your area is to not use pesticides on your lawns if you have them. they spend most of their lives in the ground so it starts at the soil. additionally, every article i see with the salacious title about ālast generation to see firefliesā seems to be blocking out a lot of things about current firefly populations. most of the fireflies on the IUCN red list they keep mentioning are marked vulnerable or least concern. so there is a possibility a species or more of fireflies may disappear, but all of them i donāt think so.