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Itās such an uncompromising song, it tackles grief and the processing of it in a vulnerable but ultimately human way. The production (credit to Benjamin Booker & Kenny Segal) is unsettling but warm, like you know that it can only get better but you have to just sit and deal with the discomfort of your current situation in order to get there.
Thereās a delicate piano melody that fades in and out of the mix alongside the faint hum of a guitar making what is in concept a experimental rap song into something different, the ārappingā is more like spoken word poetry. Benjamin Bookers intro despite being repetitive due to his relaying of āI was only a dove, only in loveā is made so powerful due to how worn out and whispery his voice is, like itās a memory of a loved one haunting you.
Which in turn fades into billy woodsā verse which reads more like poetry than a rap verse. Some of my favourite lines being: āThey called like "Come now, he doesn't have long to live", I dress slowly, Came back that night and took my baby out the crib so I could hold himā or āLocked doors never had a key but you test the handle occasionally, God forbid it swing openā āAttic stairs broken, don't go up there, From the windows i watch the diggers disappear in soft wet earth, Dinner served, i waited for my guests, long table set.ā Itās so bleak but perfectly describes the little moments of discomfort you feel when losing someone and I think it works perfectly combined with how minimalistic the production is.
The closing segment from ELUCID is a lot grander in scale and thematically darker, the production starts to get corrupted with static crackles slowly consuming each layer of the instrumental whilst ELUCID foretells the impending end. Itās a sucker punch that catches you out but it works due to how the song is structured all the emotions caused by loss are only told about up until this point and ELUCIDs part represents the listener tackling them head-on. Itās uncomfortable and youāll probably skip it on relisten (hell I often do) but I think itās purpose is so powerful and as a whole the song is incredibly thought provoking.
Apr 13, 2025
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i know it's august, but it's so easy for me to slip into a gloomy fall mood any time of year and as such, i've had this song on repeat.
i'm a big sucker for strong lyricism and this song is no exception. the fact that she takes you on this journey about the death of a relationship she's in by literally opening the song with "Pull the plug in September, I don't wanna die in June" is so poignant yet beautiful.
ALSO, the gunshot right after she says "I'll hang on 'til the chaos is through" is perfectly incorporated and really the cherry on top given the subject matter of the song.
if you're looking to feel the sonic embodiment of a lonesome autumn in the form of a song, give this track a listen.
Aug 9, 2024
Absolutely heartbreaking and devastating, but one of the best albums Iāve listened to in recent times
I love the mellow guitar vibes and the vocals are just perfect in every way to encapsulate the nostalgia and melancholy of the themes the album talks about
Just listen to it, trust me
Mar 9, 2025
there is something so cool about this unspoken juxtaposition rule in the more psychologically volatile genres, where the lyrics are bleak and anxious, always tapping into darker territory, but the melody remains beautiful and oddly comforting. i have been re-looping lots of carissaās wierd - songs about leaving lately, and now this thought refuses to leave me alone. idk!!!! itās just such a common case where something viscerally crushing happens to produce the most tender and fragile sounds, and i know it is a bit of a cornplate-level observation, but i have been pondering a lot about this
Apr 9, 2025
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My school did a workshop about it when I was like 10 and I think the amount of care and dedication it takes to hand crafting each and every frame is so cool. When its done well you get a really stylised films, Iām thinking like Chicken Run, Wallace and Gromit, Coraline, Fantastic Mr. Fox, ParaNorman and The Box Trolls all of which I loved as a kid and every time I rewatch them I get the same sense of childlike wonder I did when I watched them the first time. I know thereās a lot of crossover with CGI now when making them but just the concept of stop motion animation is really cool.
Apr 13, 2025
Bonus points if you send them to people with some message you thought was hilarious in the moment, but in all actuality it wasnāt you were just too drunk to read it properly.
Apr 14, 2025
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Iām just about to finish my bachelors in media and cultural studies and my dissertation (idk if itās the same as a thesis) is on how streaming platforms mostly Spotify, have changed the way people listen to music and how itās been individualised.
Theres a lot to it but Iām gonna try and break down how Spotify uses ai to personalise your experience with the app. Basically, you know cds and that? When you purchase a cd itās the exact same cd as someone else who also owns that cd even if you listen to it in different settings on paper itās the same experience. Streaming platforms like Spotify have changed that dynamic because now itās a lot easier to seperate the music from its intended experience. Spotify then takes your experience with that song and makes a mental note of it and will recommend you music that sounds similar to that song using a ai algorithm that compares your playlists to every playlist on the app. This leads to features like discover weekly that are entirely personalised recommendations based on your own listening history, meaning that on paper your discover weekly and your friends discover weekly should be completely different even if you listen to the same music.
Theres a lot more to it then that, including how Spotify as a platform has sort of moved on from just being a music streaming service by including social media like content with a musical twist. The algorithm is also a lot more complicated than that but thatās how it works on a surface level. But my entire paper revolves around the idea that streaming services and by extension the internet are slowly killing communal music experiences like the radio and live music venues (in some extreme cases) because people like the unique experiences that platforms like Spotify provide due to how personalised they are. Iām not finished writing it yet (deadline is in a month), but all the research is done and Iāve had a lot of interesting interviews with people who use the app casually and others who are more involved in local music scenes to see how streaming platforms have affected them.
Apr 12, 2025