i struggled with this and was too excited about college ending but i decided a few weeks before that Iād actually miss this time and i began telling myself that Iād never get this version of me back again ā it honestly shifted how I saw those last few weeks + i felt more present after that instead of feeling like i was already living in the future (not very practical i know but i hope this helps <3)
Iām graduating from college soon! But Iāve mostly been stressed and busy yet simultaneously tired and unproductive. Yknow, routine. But this is my last month, and Iāve barely seen people and donāt want it to pass me by.
Any ideas?
I hated college when I was there but I miss it so much everyday. I miss smiling at people in the hallway and doing homework. I think itās good to reflect and appreciate things, even if you didnāt appreciate it in the moment. Having something to yearn about will push you to greater places.
the feeling of, after dreaming about it your whole life, getting into college and planning to move out of my parents house is so crazy, a couple of years ago this was just dreams and impossible thoughts but now IM ACTUALLY DOING IT ITS SO INCREDIBLE
I think 10 year old addy wouldāve passed out if sheād known that she would come to own this in 13 yearsā¦you can take the girl out of bikini bottom but you canāt take bikini bottom out of the girl
i really also think about how much boys are taught ways to perform masculinity & how it is legitimised through tangible things like building a career etc but with women i find that from a young age our identity, behaviours, & thoughts are always spoken about in relation to other people/things ā gender roles within the family, how weāre perceived by men, our friendships with other women, our relationships with material things etc etc ā and this shows up in the labels that women are often given too! so and so is someoneās daughter, girlfriend, wife, mother etc etc. i envy the freedom of boyhood so much, the freedom to just be (this is not to discount the toxicity of traditional masculinity, i just think that boys are still afforded more āplayā and therefore have more opportunities to develop their sense of self). maybe i am also biased because of how iāve grown up & whatnot but i never really understood what it meant to quote unquote be a woman or perform femininity. i only saw this modelled within my nurturing friendships with women as iāve gotten older but when i was younger, in church it was always āok well donāt do this or that because x y z will happen to men if you doā or within my extended family it was often āare you seeing anyone? when are you having kidsā. damn what happened to asking about how iām doing or what my dreams are!!! long rant sorry !! but thatās my long winded way of saying āi feel youā haha
