there are snatches of a redeeming darkness to be found in this life. the other weekend, i was floating in a pool while being filmed (an experience that definitely advanced the trans agenda, thatās another story) and for a moment i found something that felt how i feel when im looking at the moon. i still donāt know their name, so iām calling them space for now. think i used to call them god mostly? but they find me in voices and smiles n the way purple light reflects off the skin of my loved ones. all this plus Blackness makes me think of space as a homeā Space is the Place type beat! need to rewatch that movie⦠but anyways iām sitting on the couch with Black people and there is future to be found in all shades <3
i love a āspace operaā i also love the beginning of sci fi series when you donāt Have any context. just a collection of random ass words Like beegelzorp and vivetch and other combinations of sounds that sound Dumb as hell
a film about a group of lesbians sent to earth to get their hearts broken because their home planet canāt handle the intensity of their unconditional love
you can show someone love without knowing their name yet! say hello n commit to practicing seeing n loving the people around youā compliment the choices you can see theyāve made, or sum u notice in their becoming: their glasses, the way they keep their shoulders relaxed, the generosity of their laugh! this goes extra for Black people, homeless people, n other people the state trains us to invisibilize n see as zeroes. very quickly will strangers become community once you learn and call them by their names :)
warren at the block said i need to start journaling again so i will try here until i can get an actual journal but i came in here to talk abt my motivation i think? or at least how i feel life has been asking of me a higher self lately, n so im trying to figure out how to build new patterns n disrupt ones that rly dont even feel like me anymoreā they feel more like theyāre part of my training? the autopilot used to be really helpful in psychically n emotionally dangerous environments but now itās like holding me back i think? iām trying to jump into cold water (metaphorically lmao) to reset my system but itās also like⦠bro the change is in the minuscule n accumulating! u gotta do it right now for tomorrow! i need to get back to dreamingā¦. - 5/5/25; 19:33 CDT
in the goo :p