Hey guys it’s imkhushi If you saw me in the wild, you would notice that Im 4’11 feet tall, wear baggy jeans and silver jewelry, and have long wavy hair. My parents immigrated to from India to the US before I was born, so Im culturally conflicted. I grew up all across the country so I’m geographically conflicted. My name means ā€œhappinessā€ in Hindi and I have chronic depression and panic disorder, so I’m mentally conflicted. I draw, paint, read, listen to music but as a personality trait, and cook. I try to make everything fun and funny and unserious. Im chatty and make besties everywhere I go. But im chronically single and not close to many people. My life motto is ā€œit’s just me in the worldā€ which I made up as a little kid. I just turned my whole life around and quit everything to move to NY and get an education degree so I can eventually work in education policy. Dw guys, I’ll make sure we have a department of education<3 And I like kids because i care about little things and don’t care about rules or structure. I will quietly break every rule I don’t agree with as my own personal rebellion. Nice to meet u all!
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4’11ā€ gang, all the internal conflict being a child of immigrants is so real
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