I start texting a guy
and then
I go do something for like 20 minutes
and then I text him hi, he texts back, and then I ask him what he's doing
and he leaves me on seen, I text him like if he's ok, on seen
why are you leaving me on seen?, on seen
like what did I do
i keep glAncing to my phone. not to scroll. not to distract mySelf. just to check. if you've answered me yet. a glance. a breath. a pAuse. nothing. the screen stays siLent. but still i look agAin. maybe i mIssed it. maybe the moment i stop cheCking is the moment you sEnd me that text. the one that i've been wAiting on all day. speculating what order of letters you will use. what words. what phraSes. which tOne. if your words will feEl like a whisper or a sHout. if they will hold me close or keEp me wandering.
