so I really enjoy your writing and I am in the same boat and I'm sorry I have no answer for you. I think it's pretty poetic you are holding fig stems, reminds me of the poem "Fig Tree" by Sylvia Plath. Even Sylvia Plath seemed plagued by this daunting feeling of the future.
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omg I was referencing sylvia, the fig tree metaphor is just so applicable! glad someone found it.
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