DOWN WITH SELF-DECEPTION
Anyways some things to help this include
- reading on self respect by joan didion
- taking responsibility for Fucking Up
- making a tangible list of good things about yourself
- realizing that honesty is ultimately less painful
it requires too much mental energy to stop them or make them go away - just let it happen. the shame will fade away. i unfortunately haven’t been able to shake an ex. i also haven’t been able to shake the mean version of me telling me i’m not doing enough or i’m an imposter for idk maybe my entire adult life? i convince myself of an entirely unbased lie at least once a day. today’s was that i have somehow committed tax fraud even though i know i didn‘t. it’s quite funny actually to just let them roll off the brain and see what your anxious little neurons come up with 🤪
we don’t make jewellery like we used to!! where did the whimsy go!! the uniqueness!! the daintiness!! the literal ethereal feeling that this watch brings!!!! I CANNOT FIND IT ANYWHEREEEEEE
