Im working on an album and I keep going back and forth on aesthetics and visions. The music is almost done (concept-wise) but the idea of promo and actually getting it out there can be so overwhelming. I’m still super excited to put it out, I just really hope that it gets heard. 🖤
I soooo scared to show the world what I feel, but at the same time I'm scared people won't like it or worse judge me for it. At the same time I feel like an idiot for caring this much about songs I wrote when no one will really hear them... Does it make sense?
Doing what feels right. Being an independent artist right now is so confusing and difficult because it feels like you need to be your own marketing team, designer, PR, manager, etc but honestly I’m fucking done trying to do all that shit. My instinct is to do what I feel like doing now. If that means getting the urge to make a Instagram Reel with my song very randomly when I’m not even wearing pants then… that’s all everyone is getting. If it means I feel like doing a whole rollout (doubtful) then so be it!!!!! I’m trying to put my stock in the things I know I’m good at and genuinely enjoy doing. That’s not marketing!!! And maybe me trying to do ~marketing is what was in my way the whole time. I have never felt so much confidence in my artistic voice in my life. I hope it’s felt by others and honestly, if it isn’t. I don’t gaf. I’ll be over here having fun
sometimes i hit slumps of divine nihilism. Nobody listening to this shit what’s the point type mindsets. ultimately i always realize creating music and visuals is the only thing that fulfills me and id hate myself forever if i quit. if i spend the rest of my life at a dead end job ill be happy as long as im still making music.
