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iām so worried for the future. while i try to just live in the present, iām afraid ill never be able to really make it in any art, and it will just be relegated to hobby. iāve always been an artist, iāve been writing, and painting, singing, and acting since i was a child. thereās nothing i feel more deeply in my bones than artistry. there is nothing i feel defines me more, i am full of an insatiable providence to engage and really make something. i donāt care what it is, if itās music, or acting in films, or physical art, i an ordained to act as a vessel for things to be seen. but i understand, its not a career of value, or the industry is competitive, and it breaks my heart to think i may never be able to fully commit myself to it all.
already, i find myself making exceptions, applying as a film studies major, because it would be more versatile, but still allow me to work closely with those circles. if i canāt be within i can stay close. but i will miss it, sidelined, benched.
i guess iām in early mourning of a dream.
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I think even in your worst case scenario - when you make it a hobby and the pressure's off - you could still have a pleasant surprise and find a career. I'm optimistic for you! (But also yes - the grief is hard to bear)
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just had an epiphany about how everyone seeks something different from art, how we all perceive it based on who we are as individuals ā¦ for the longest time in art/film school iāve been scared to pursue the art i want out of fear that it will turn out very bad.
but i hope we make art anyway despite that fear, as long as it sustains ourselves and the people who matter. i hope we all get to freely make ābadā art š«
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was talking to my best friend this morning. Does anyone else feel an enormous burden to become rich and famous because they pursue the arts? I feel like a large amount of people donāt appreciate artists unless they become widely recognized. Itās discouraging and upsetting! It makes me rewire what I think the word āsuccessā means.
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My friend keeps on asking me why I'm not going to art school.
Every single class we have together I doodle on my paper and she always looks over and asks me the same question, "why aren't you becoming an art major."
I don't really know how to tell her that that's exactly what my dad did and he had to give up his dreams of being an artist to go into the military because nothing else was working. There just weren't jobs or opportunities for him.
I don't want to live like that. I'm going to keep my passions to myself, keep it a hobby and happily settle for designing houses.
Art school is just sucha risk for me that there's no way I'd ever feel comfortable enough to spend thousands on for school.
I love the compliments though :D
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my only contention with them is they arenāt cohesive but iāve got a whole plan for my torso so itās fine,,,
is it not smart to have gotten them and get more before im even 18? probably. wouldnāt tell you to do it
lov them anyways tho :):):):)!/)
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why tf is my mother, a harvard graduate, working on her SECOND MASTERS (?) telling me to use AI for everything? i told her itās inauthentic and she said āschoolwork is inauthenticā. what happened to the art of grappling with language? āthe ideas are mine,ā but language in itself is yours.
people need to start doing things they actually find passion in more. maybe then it will seem less of a chore to do basic fucking work.
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