listening while I clean the house, ride my bike on lil errands and disassociate during the evening commute 😌 lonelygirl gives the perfect blend of feeling hot and emo
admittedly i do this often and it’s an indication of feeling chaotic and looking to ground myself. the past couple days i’ve been moved by upset x shenseea, wifey riddim x shy girl and jorja smiff, when there is no sun x sun ra, star x willow.
i have carrie and lowell saved but i fear i will yeet myself if i listen to it on day 2 of my cycle LOL.
one last app I let myself open to put on a song, change up the vibe, and get up to do real life shit. usually feels productive and lets me have one more sip of that digital dopamine
Instructions on Not Giving Up
Ada Limón More than the fuchsia funnels breaking out
of the crabapple tree, more than the neighbor’s
almost obscene display of cherry limbs shoving
their cotton candy-colored blossoms to the slate
sky of Spring rains, it’s the greening of the trees
that really gets to me. When all the shock of white
and taffy, the world’s baubles and trinkets, leave
the pavement strewn with the confetti of aftermath,
the leaves come. Patient, plodding, a green skin
growing over whatever winter did to us, a return
to the strange idea of continuous living despite
the mess of us, the hurt, the empty. Fine then,
I’ll take it, the tree seems to say, a new slick leaf
unfurling like a fist to an open palm, I’ll take it all
There’s a chart I added below that’s helped me become an overall better creative. Inspiration comes and goes and often times is so flimsy that you can’t even trust it once it arrives! But being in the habit of creating breeds consistency. Creating for the sake of creating helps you develop a more efficient system + allows you understand yourself better. What happens when you create by habit is that eventually inspiration will hit and when it does you’ll have been expecting it and prepared for it. An inspired moment combined with a system built on habit breeds amazing, truly inspired works of genius. As someone who picked up writing two months ago and is now doing 2-3 articles a week for a newsletter, I’ve learned that I have to write regardless of whether inspiration is there or not. And when I do that, I often find myself getting inspired in the process of habit. Final thought is that someone once told me creativity ebbs and flows and to get the good ideas out you need to release the bad ones. This means you have to create over and over and over to push out the crap and get to the gold. This only happens if you get into a habit of creating. Hope this helps!