is underrated!!! Sometimes you just need a good cry after you feel like the whole world is falling apart. Idk I find it so cathartic. brings me back to the beginning </3
I can really feel how badly I've needed to do this but I can't lately for whatever reason. I might have used up all my tears in March and April as I burned out at my job. Got a few out the past couple nights but damn I really need a waterfall. I think tears left inside poison a person :(
hear me out. I am watching my 65 year old dad use Instagram and social media like I used to when it first came out and I was 14, and nothing brings me more joy. It is simultaneously nostalgic, ironic (because who tells you to get of your phone more than your parents), and unifying because we really are all the same. Over the past few years I’ve watched him progress from not having a profile photo and 20 followers, to having over 600 (? Huh), sending me reels more than I send him, and posting slideshows (youre not supposed to be chill like dat). but it’s really very charming
lately ive found myself casually chewing on treats and stuff at work, and today I asked myself why...why can't I stop doing this? My reasoning was, "I'm tired and want to feel better." Hmmm..I think I associate food with "feeling better," like it will improve my mood – ie it's having a lasting effect on me and helping me get through the day, like it's my SSRI. Today I realized, maybe it's okay to just feel shitty and tired. I was pushing myself to be productive, efficient, energized etc "to feel better" so I could work better and feel better about the work I was doing. But why? I do a good job, the only difference is my attitude about it. You actually don't need to be EXCITED about work to get shit done. Obviously this isn't me saying you should deprive yourself, like go get your treats girl. But I just had never thought of it that way. So yeah, embrace feeling crappy